tirsdag den 19. august 2014

The irony of wars and humanity

Humanitarian heroes

Today is World Humanitarian Day - a day where the humanitarian sector celebrates itself by celebrating the people who has lost their lives in their effort to render support in some of the worst crisis in the world.

Today is also the day where a friend of mine has told me, that one of her colleagues is threatened with being fired for refusing to go back to a conflict zone until the organisation has proper security measures in place (the same conflict zone where she was recently caught in a cross fire...).

Somehow the irony is overwhelming.

I do recognise the fact that the people who accept to work in some of the world’s most dangerous contexts like Somalia, Iraq, Syria etc (very time contextual – in 6 months these might have been very different examples), are taking immense risk and giving up on a number of ‘comforts’ that most people who enjoy them daily don’t even think about.

But this is only recognised, because they have the choice. If I was a Somali woman born in Baidoa – my life would have been war. I would not have had a choice; I would be in a context where the comforts of other parts of the world are unknown.

So what makes a humanitarian hero – the choice? If I chose to go and work in Somalia I potentially become a humanitarian hero, as I chose to risk my life on a daily basis… Yes I would do so in an effort to right some of the many wrongs that is otherwise taking place in that and many other countries.

The wars of the world

The wars of the world, is contrary to what is often reported in mainstream media, not secluded to a confined geographical area. The wars of the world are global. They might physically be taking place in CAR, Somalia, Afghanistan or a fourth country, but that is the least part of it. Wars are an instrument of money and power, and the tools to gain the two are human beings.

So in my thinking - Humanitarian heroes are, in fact, people who have made an active choice to partake in trying to correct some of the wrongs we are doing – all simultaneously. It is even highly likely that we are using the same money we made of this conflict, in trying to ‘help’ the people who have fallen victim to it.
Again the Irony is profound.

Cynicism and principle

I do not mean to be cynical about this. I do really respect the work of so many people on the ground fighting, to improve the lives of those with less fortune, on a daily basis. But it is a choice and it is the right thing to do. Even if I am not actively handing out guns or mines to the fights of the conflict, I am possibly investing in the manufacturing of these through my bank, or my governments investment policies. That makes me a stakeholder, and thereby I have to take responsibility. This doesn’t mean however I should throw myself in front of a bullet any given day  - how can I help anybody if I am dead?! But it does mean I have to take a stand and take part in righting the wrong I am partaking in (possibly without knowing, because I have decided that ignorance makes me happy and content).

It boils down to principle. If I do something wrong I should try, to the best of my abilities, to rectify the mistake. Does that make “me” a hero, in the commercial understanding of the word– no it makes me a righteous human being- Which actually in turn might mean ‘hero’ as it seems not to be the way of the world to do what is right.

In most conflicts or disasters help comes first from those who are closest. Several studies (incl the Local to global) have shown that, yes humanitarian agencies provide aid – but they are rarely the first ones to take action. They don’t throw themselves in the middle of a fight to try to end it and protect the innocent victims. What they do is to step in as soon as possible after the damage is done, and make an effort to help those who fell victim. That is very different from how people in the context react, both in terms of action, but also in terms of timeline. How effective is an emergency response if the application process and approval takes 3 months? Just wondering…

I do believe we should honour the Humanitarian heroes – all of them; the refugees, the internally displaced, the children, the elderly and also of course the humanitarian workers. And I must admit – I am proud to know quite a number of people I would qualify as humanitarian heroes.


Happy Humanitarian day. 

søndag den 6. april 2014

Religion vs Self Discipline...

So I just started a new job which is very exiting, and very frightening at the same time.

It is exiting because it is a very cool position, an organisation with a good reputation and because it keeps me employed for a few more years. It is frightening because I have absolutly no idea what I will be doing, and how the organisation work and thereby I don't know if I can do the job as expected. Of course I can, because I have to... But I lack that element of confidence that I normally have. I am not doubting my capacities I am just not sure what my life looks like by this time next week, as I will be in a new country and a nex city - on top of the new job....

Can religion help?

I am not a religious person, but I think this is a time where it would have been nice to put my trust in something beyond myself. I have thought that before, usually when I am hopelessly in lack of selfdiscipline. I have for a long time now tried to cut back on sugar and stop biting my nails - I have succeded at neither. But in the end, the choice is mine and I just have to stop, it is quite simple actually, but also very difficult. I simply don't have the willpower. Which makes me a bit angry actually, I am a fairly disciplinned and strong person in most other ways; I wrote my thesis in 4 months, I usually finished an exam long before the due time (if I had 4 hours, I would usually leave after 2 and if I had a week, I was done after 4 days) in short I buckle up and get tings done - except the nail and sugar thing, oh yeah and the regular exercise...

In this process of getting a new job, I had several interviews, some better than others, but generally 90% went well. In the end it was up to me to get it to work, I could prepare better, I could focus more I could do quite a lot, but still I found that I would want to send out a little 'prayer', kind of, 'please let me do well' or after I would maybe think, 'please let them give me this'. The thing is, I have no idea who I was sending these thoughts to. Maybe the universe in general... But the universe cannot mikro manage like that, and I am, as stated, not religious. So why do I do this?

Order in the chaos.

I think it was Geertz who talked about order and chaos. We can only control our own actions, not those of others and there is so much happening in the world that is difficult to understand and explain so we, as human beings, turn to something tangible to make sense of it all. That makes sense to me, as the idea of everytjing being random and with no further purpose is just too overwhelming. It is nice to think that there is a reason for what happens, for which jobs I get or don't get, for the people I meet and or the things that happen in the world in general.

I think this is where religion gets it's reason d'etre. We need faith to be able to exist. It is less important what we have faith in, but for us to not get lost in depression and chaos, we need to believe in something. I guess some of us are strong enough to just believe in ourselves while others need something more external, and with a greater power.

Down to willpower.

So how do I cut back on my sugar intake, stop biting my nails, start exercising more. Do I need to find faith in something external and ask for strenght, or do I do as I do in my professional life, buckle up and find the will and discipline to do it, by just making up my mind that this is what needs to happen... I think in the end it will have to be the latter and I need to make a choice that this is what I want - REALLY want. But imagine if I could add faith on top of that, and ask an external force for help in achieving this, that would be nice and somehow comforting. As it is now, I am left with only myself to rely on. And honestly, I am not always the most stable person, so I think I need to wish myself good luck in this project. And also realise, that my nails will probably never be nice and long and look very pretty with polish on them... Oh well so be it. At least I have a really cool job... :)

fredag den 14. februar 2014

Guys and Girls...

The universal rule of guys beeing unreliable and girls being angry about it...

I love my random playlist - it takes me from Creed to PS12 and Thomas Butenschoen in less than 15 minutes... And Thomas B was kind enough to make me ponder.

When was the agreement made that guys should always somehow be unreliable and girls always be the ones being pissed off about it...?

When I was younger I worked in a bar and more time than once did wifes and girlfriends call to please speak to their partner who had not come home as agreed. At one point a girlfriend even came in the door, all dressed up asking her boyfriend -still in workattire- 'did we not have a date?' all he answered was yes, gulped down the rest of his beer in about 3 seconds, and out the door they went...

Now about 15 years after this insident I am living on another continent and while cooking I listen to music and here comes Thomas B singing about how he is on his way to see his girlfriend, but he is stalling on his way as he knows she is pissed off... It is possible to think that it is for Danish guys to not turn up as agreed or in other ways break promises.

But then I think about my dating life - sampled from 3 continents - and some of the other songs that come up on the playlist... And I can conclude that it is not for Danish guys alone, or for Danish girls for that matter. Most of the songs by female singers are about broken promises, while the ones from guys don't mention anything to the sort - except if it is to say 'sorry I messed up, I know you are angry' in one way or another...

Don't get e wrong, my boyfriend is amazing but none the less he has developed the sentence - and used it to me- 'I just didn't want your wrath'. Autch... So I am the horrid angry girlfriend - and here I was thinking i was quite flexible...

But I have desided not to despair because with the pondering I have done this evening. I am thinking maybe this is the one context where 'universalism' has a place and a conclusion can be drawn. Guys are bound to not keep agreements - and forget to inform about not keeping it - and girls are bound to be mad about it - because the least you can do is inform, preferably in good time...